I recently saw an online post where a woman was flabbergasted that her son fell for a 300-400lb woman. She could not wrap her head around the fact that her son was eventually going to sleep with this woman and there was a " How can anyone be attracted to that ?!" attitude.

 She wasn't kind, she wasn't open minded. In fact she was outright brutal. But she was honest.

 My personal view of myself runs from " I guess I am a cute cuddly panda bear" to "Holy crap I need to have less mirrors in this bedroom of mine ! I am a f*cking beast! " and just wanting to hide forever .. Either way the small jaunt to the shower proves interesting via it's reflection.

 However I know that regardless of weight I would still rip myself apart. I love when a woman sincerely owns it. I never got there, but I think they are right and I am wrong. Who is anyone to judge and assume anything. What gives anyone the right to say what is or is not attractive. The flesh is not the soul.

 I suppose men do this too when the hair starts to thin a bit... it's that disease of "popular opinion" , the marketing , the pressure. 

 The signs of "aging" or simply "falling from grace" are customarily wrapped up in tight skin, flat stomachs and perfect white teeth. In other words “youth” with some perfection mixed in. God forbid real life happens. And since we are living human beings, it will. Meds will affect us, insulin resistance, disease, trauma, stress it will come for us one after the other in due time. No one has a flawless life that affords them eternal beauty and health. Not even Cher, although she admittedly hit the gene pool jackpot. And I find it darkly hysterical that all these broken less than perfect people can always feel so confident in judging anyone of size. People who wouldn't pass their own expectations and demands... 

The expectations out there it turns on us all. If you let it….

 We are taught that looks mean so much. Many people fall for the idea of someone. They shun who could be a soulmate because their friends may not approve. Where does the obsession with looks leave us?! ALONE, or in less than relationships we never quite feel comfortable admitting. How many people "settle" or put up with a lot because they don't want to be alone?!

 So maybe this guy just saw a beautiful soul and woman and her 400lbs figure meant nothing to him. What if he listened to his mother ?! Would he end up marrying some trophy wife and divorced 5 years later taken down a few pegs?! Just to please a standard?!

 I can only hope this 400lb lady has a strong backbone and can find something to enjoy about her mother in law. How this man’s mother can only see fat instead of someone who makes her sons life better is beyond me and sad. But it happens, I haven’t been anything but a “weight” to many since the late 80’s. 

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Something about a good scarf. This one was affordable with a mermaid pendant and had free shipping. But most of all it is purple. I tie dyed the dress myself got the dress on clearance from Roaman's a few years ago in a pale gray and decided to dress it up hippie style. So this outfit is a nod to my hippie side and love of purple. So hot this summer I have not been sporting too many outfits. Most days are running around in my undies truth be told.. LOL #bbw #plussizefashions #scarves #fashionblogger #bbwblogger #mermaidscarves #mermaids #purple

So thrilled Walmart sells my size now! :) #Walmart #affordablefashions #bbw #bbwselfies

I have always been a pear shaped girl. Small on top and big on the bottom... I guess my face looks small for someone my size ..  my butt more than makes up for it. :P #BBW #lanebryant #lanebryantfashions #plussizes #leopardprints #leopardprintdresses #savers #thrifts #plusfashion

As someone who has traipsed malls in the 80s and 90s to find that one store that carried my size I find this article disgusting . Anyone who frowns upon plus size mannequins is wrong.. Dead wrong.
 Why did I have to go through 3 floors of retail offerings to find that one store that carried my size?! Was my body shape not profitable enough?! Did someone assume I was a bad example of gluttony via the stereotype express? Was society simply telling me to go somewhere else that I didn't exist on their scale. ( pun not intended).
 Whatever the actual reason was .. I got the message... I wasn't the "norm" I wasn't "desired" . The men weren't chasing me down , it was presumed I'd never buy lipstick and bags of lingerie. I wasn't targeted for marketing. Fat people apparently had no style or money back then in their eyes. All I knew was that my section was hidden in the back of a store as if I were societies dirty little secret and embarrassment. The silver racks boasted floral prints and A line sacks in polyester blends that I am pretty sure made my Grandma cry once or twice... well at least cringe.
 Fast forward to today.  Some companies may indeed see this as an opportunity to branch out and be size positive , many are probably just jumping on the bandwagon.  These days many people are simply bigger than they used to be. I won't get into "why" here but now there are "enough" of us to be figured into marketing and finances in retail situations. In 2019 there is now no denying there is a "Plus Size" market.
 So I am thrilled that a 20 year old lady can walk into Nike and see something besides one body shape. I spent my 20's being told " We don't carry your size" by retail clerks in a condescending way. So this is a victory. This 20 year old doesn't have to hold her thin friends things looking at a size 2 mannequin knowing nothing in the store reaches out to her while her friend tries on 10 outfits. This is a silent emotional abuse. Simply put these subtle messages cause damage. This plus size mannequin is saying you have some worth.
 One reason why bigger people don't have optimal health in SOME cases is others attitudes towards them. Some of us hide , we avoid the doctors , we avoid the public and we avoid the gym (not because of  the stereotyped reasons either!!). No one wants to be made fun or bullied all the time , it's a drag.
  A girl doesn't need to be humiliated for wearing spandex ,  shorts , or tank tops. It takes courage to enter a gym when you aren't one of the "cute" tiny ones. Trust me I know from experience. My life has been a slap in the face of knowing what people secretly whisper... I am well trained in the "look at that" poking , giggling corner of the world.
 We are all equal , just different. Hard to believe in this day and age we are still fighting some of these battles. No one is perfectly healthy , NO ONE. So to pin point any group of people by appearance is short sighted.
 Size acceptance is not promoting obesity. Who in the world is going to say to themselves "Wow,  I want that Nike top!!" " Oh no,  but it's only in a size 2x maybe I need to up my carbs?!?! ".  Nobody , but there is a much higher chance of someone needing it in their size will say " Yes! Finally something comfortable to walk the dog in"  . And they can then have what they need with a good feeling about exercise all instead of leaving the store in tears of frustration. Exercise should be something you fit into your schedule to feel better , not a punishment for not being a certain body size.
Wouldn't it be great if us Plus Sized women all got into our Nike Sports clothes and made a racket?! Let our thighs rub together and sing the song of freedom all over the neighborhood walking our dogs. Let the clothing work for us for once. Tell the world we have had enough all the while unaplogetically wearing form fitting spandex!

https://www.dazeddigital.com/beauty/body/article/44807/1/nike-mannequins-telegraph-obese

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Denim 24/7 off shoulder top, Avenue pants. Sporting my snake bracelet find from Goodwill. Never underestimate the power of the thrift! #Goodwill #goodwillfinds #bbw #plussizes #plussizefashions #denim247 #red #bracelets # plussizes #blogger #plussizeblogger #cynipoeti #hormonalumbrella

Running Copyright Cyni Poeti 2019
She ran in fear
Desperately trying to terminate all the pain within
The image of demise across the paved avenue
Constricting her chest muscles
The fragments of twisted heart and bleeding limbs
No moment passes without the haunting of his absence
cutting teardrop shapes
into her skin
Leaving an empty soul to choke her deep into the night
As well as tears that flow on her insides repressed and near fatal
She lost herself with the memory of him in her gut
Then roamed over sand and concrete with only one link to light
Only to awaken in her self induced tragedy
She never meant to abandon him
Her footprints went on to wander the earth in her spiritual death
Until she awoke in the night with his smile in her throat
And she knew the grave mistakes that had led her astray
She awoke in a place entitled home that felt like hot coals
With one blink she knew exactly how lost she was
She knew how meaningless everything was in his absence.
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